Super trouper

I’ve always enjoyed the song but didn’t actually know what a Super Trouper was until I looked it up on Google yesterday. Apparently a Super Trouper’s a large spotlight used for lighting events. Makes sense. I was trying to think of promotional ideas for my New Year video for Privvi and it popped into my head. The song’s fabulous and I love a bit of Abba.

Tonight the super trouper lights are gonna find me
Shining like the sun (sup-p-per troup-p-per)
Smiling, having fun (sup-p-per troup-p-per)
Feeling like a number one
Tonight the super trouper beams are gonna blind me
But I won’t feel blue (sup-p-per troup-p-per)
Like I always do (sup-p-per troup-p-per)
‘Cause somewhere in the crowd there’s you

Privvi’s my Super Trouper. Very pleased with the result from these tea lights forming the logo. Burnt a hole in one of my sheets but I can always use it for painting.

I’m launching Privvi tomorrow:


Happy New Year!

Great creative success in the garden this evening. We set up tea lights spelling out ‘Privvi’ and made the i’s out of fireworks (see photograph). It actually looked lovely and I’m going to post the videos on Facebook and Instagram tomorrow (those links are at the top of my blog).

I’m still aiming to launch my product next Monday the 4th January. Lots to do before then so fingers crossed. You can visit:

I’ll be back to my blog from the Saturday the 2nd January. I’ve really enjoyed writing it so far and I’m hoping to share some good things with you next year.

Wishing you all a very Happy New Year. Here’s hoping that 2021 is a better, kinder year for all of us.

Lighting up the night

My family helped outside in the garden tonight trying to do a New Year promotional video for my Privvi box. Definitely a team effort. It took ages to cut a hole and fix the box to the end of a broom, cut sparklers with wire cutters and strap them to the edges of the box. 

It was supposed to be a glamorous video of Privvi lit by sparklers in the darkness. Sadly the matches kept going out so we ended up with sparklers of varying lengths and the perfect, black background we’d anticipated sadly ended up being a clear view of our old garden table and the cardboard box we’d put underneath.

Thought I’d show you our efforts anyway so you can see. It’s quite pretty although it isn’t perfect. After dinner we’re going to try some slow motion videos of sparklers writing the word ‘Privvi’ in the dark. Going for plan B.

Small steps

I’ve decided to try and find a positive element to every day from now on. It doesn’t matter what it is, as long as it brings something good to the day. I think it will be productive for me psychologically.

Today I built a cardboard display unit. It took me a long time and came in four sections. I had to watch a video to work out how to do it (about eight times!) It displays my boxes really well and I’m going to place them in a local retailer to test my market.

It amused me that something so mundane could give me such a sense of pride and satisfaction. Today wasn’t particularly productive so it was great to have something to show for it.

Having a go

I found myself browsing an interesting article this morning about staying positive through winter. I like to read the news when I wake up so I’ve an idea of what’s happening in the world.

This particular article put forward an idea I found really relevant to myself. Titled ‘Do it badly’, the principle being that you shouldn’t let fear of failure stop you trying things. It encourages people to ‘have a go’ as it doesn’t matter if it’s wrong and the result may be better than expected. Tips include keeping optimistic and persevering until you achieve a better result.

I used to hold back on doing things myself due to self-criticism, but I’ve become much better at cutting myself a bit of slack and learning to go with the flow. Perhaps that’s why I’ve had the courage to try my new business. After everything I’ve been through, I’m not afraid of things being imperfect and have become more accepting of uncertainty. The challenge of my business feels less than those with my health and at least I have some choice and control over how my business develops. I know I can change things if I get them wrong and improve as I progress. I just need to crack on and hope for the best.

Christmas greetings

I’ve always really liked Gisela Graham Christmas tree decorations. I prefer an old-fashioned style of decor and have collected over a number of years. I think my Privvi box compliments them quite well although it’s quite a modern design.

I’m looking forward to a bit of a rest over Christmas so today is my final sign off before the festive break. I’m hoping to be back to my blog on Monday the 28th. I’ve really enjoyed writing it so far. 

Wishing everyone a Happy Christmas from Privvi and I.

Getting creative

My daughter’s been helping me to make a promotional video for Privvi. I really want people to see what the box looks like on the front and back. Also to show people a view of what’s inside so they know what to expect.

It’s surprisingly hard to make it look good, get everything into the shot and get across what’s important. It all seemed so simple before we actually tried it. I don’t know how people make their social media videos look so perfect! I need some kind of crash course.

This is a still from our latest attempt. It wasn’t too bad but we’re going to try for a slightly better version tomorrow.

What makes us human

This is a clay imprint of my childrens’ hands aged 18 and 28 months. They are adorably small and perfectly formed versions of the ones they have now. Thumbs and all.

When I look at hands now I’m acutely aware of thumbs and their importance in the role and function of the hand. I fractured my thumb snowboarding years ago and developed some awareness of how key it was then. Untill my accident more recently I’d not really given it further thought. 

Thumbs allow us to grasp things and give us a distinct evolutionary advantage. Without them humans would never have developed tools and in fact, looking at it in terms of modern society, wouldn’t have had the dexterity to create most of the world we live in. It is this particular feature that distinguishes us from most other animals.

I read in an article that without any thumb you would lose at least 40 percent of your hand function. It’s often when we lose something that we reflect and appreciate it more. This is very much the case with my thumb and I am trying very hard to save what I now can.

Circuit meltdown

Today my brain feels like an overloaded, malfunctioning circuit board with too many active pathways. I nearly had a circuit meltdown this afternoon and felt I was about to give up on the day. I managed to calm down, reel myself back in and focus (thankfully). Things are so intense at the moment that I don’t know where I’m at half the time. I keep making to do lists as it helps me keep on track. 

The consultant called about my hand on Friday and advised that I need an operation in the New Year with two consultants present due to the complexity of the situation. They would repair the ligament in my hand for the second time and also take a biopsy to confirm there’s no longer infection. I had a good cry about it on Friday night as it wasn’t what I’d hoped to hear. I was hoping they could just sign the infection off but a biopsy means they will need to go into the bone marrow which isn’t great and carries risks. I’ll need to decide what I want to do over the holidays. Hopefully I can find some thinking space over the next few weeks. 

I’m trying to get organised for Christmas and still making shopping lists and wondering how and when I’m going to buy things. I failed to organise a shopping slot so I’ll have to join the foray at the supermarket in the next few days. 

We also just went from Tier 2 to 4 in just over 48 hours. I respect the need for this but it has made Christmas a bit of a moving target with our plans continually changing to accommodate the different rules. It takes up so much brain energy and organisation, particularly with the children and the family.

Then there’s my lovely Privvi which is so important but had to take a bit of a back seat this weekend. There’s still plenty to do over the next couple of weeks and I’m working towards a website launch on the 4th January. I need to do more promotion which I find hard as I’m not great with social media. Bit of a steep learning curve. I’ll just get there bit by bit.

More about toilets…

There’s a famous toilet scene in the film ‘Trainspotting’ that popped into my head today. It’s spectacularly disgusting and features the lead character diving headfirst into the filthiest, dirtiest, public toilet imaginable. Apparently the scene was created in a clean loo using different kinds of chocolate and the set smelled delicious!

I’ve just done a little reading around the subject of toilet hygiene and it seems that my fear of toilet door handles isn’t unfounded. It’s one of the worst places for germs, particularly the inner door handle. It’s best to avoid touching the handle on the way out of a toilet if you’ve just washed your hands. Also, I never put anything down on the floor or the sink surround. Apparently these areas aren’t great either.

I never, ever sit on a toilet seat, unless I absolutely have to. The idea of my backside being against a surface where a strangers has just been is incomprehensibly disgusting. If I have to sit I’ll clean and cover the seat with tissue paper. It’s one of the reasons that a toilet seat cover was first on my toilet hygiene wish-list. I also added toilet paper as an essential as often there isn’t any and if there is, the cleanliness of it can be questionable. 

I’ll avoid touching the toilet flush or handle if I can and if the sink looks clean and there’s soap available, I’ll wash my hands. If there’s no soap, I’ll wash my hands with water and gel or wipe them afterwards. I’ll turn the taps on before washing but I’ll not touch the taps to turn them off.

I couldn’t fit a gel in my pack and opted for a strong sanitising wipe. This is better in some ways as it can be used on hands, surfaces or both. The gloves give the added option of not touching anything at all. I like the idea that you can put them on before you go in, do everything you need to do, then dispose of them at the end and leave feeling safer.

It’s enlightening to write all of these things down as it makes me realise why I find toilets such a challenge.